Hello world and all who read this. I’m at barns and noble right now, one of my favorite places, with a soy chai tea, one of my favorite drinks. Sleepy Head by Passion Pit is playing. I do love this song.
I think lately I’ve been confused. REALLY confused. Questioning myself at every corner, second-guessing myself constantly. Wondering if I like where I am at right now? I guess everyone goes through a phase of downtime, and it’s my turn. I just need to pay more attention to me and to my feelings before I go around trying to fix everyone else and make them happy; because I think at the end of the day people can ALWAYS find something to be sad about. So even if am able to make someone’s life better, it’s out of my hands if they chose to be happy about it at the end of the day.
Lately my favorite person in the world has been my best friend Parker. I don’t know what it is but he is just ALWAYS happy. His lows are either from exhaustion or hunger. I want to be more like that. I want to not let things get to me and I want to be happy with what is happening and happy with where I am going. If only right? I’m not saying I don’t love being around everyone else, it’s just hmm nice to have that ray of sunshine around me. (: He’s my Jacob
Maybe it’s just so much fun to be around him because he is SO easy to tease. I forgot how much fun it is to play and joke around for hours. Have I become too serious? I don’t want to be serious! I want to always be a kid at heart; I mean I know lots of adults have told me I’m very mature for my age, but it’s not that, I mean shit… fart jokes crack me up, I think it’s just I’m mature in the sense I have an insane amount of empathy for people.
And maybe it’s that empathy for the world and all it’s sorrow that gets me down. Everyone has a sad story it seems. Everyone has sorrow in their hearts, and I can’t fix it! How positively frustrating! LOL
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