So, I suppose I should be feeling bad, I said something that hurt one of my best friends feelings today. It wasn’t supposed to hurt her feelings. I guess I should listen to everyone else and just quit trying but I wouldn’t want my friends to give up on me, so why would I give up on them?
Anyways I honestly don’t remember what it was I said to make her so angry with me but I mentioned something about her father. Not that she ever talks about much of things from her past unless I pry, from what I know he passed away when she was younger, and the stories I heard about him from her and her family all pointed out that he was a strong friendly amazing person who put up with a lot and made the most out of what he could. I admire that and I am truly sorry that she is missing out on a positive and loving father to be her role model and friend.
I get so depressed seeing her constantly down and sad about life, seriously it makes me want to just throw my arms up and not care about anything. It’s hard to see your best friend feeling like she’s worthless and everything else all the time. Of course it’s not just her, its pretty much everyone I know in this world. Our society doesn’t make the average person feel like they are worth anything. It’s sad.
Anyways I was laying in bed thinking about what her father would say to her, I imagine he’s watching down on her and I wondered what he would have to say to try to make her feel better, to try to inspire here when EVERYTHING I’ve tried has failed miserably. So I asked her what do you think your dad would say? She closed the door on me and then eventually came out and said to me twice that what I had said was a low blow. She then preceded to walk out the house then back again for her purse and work clothes to walk to work in the rain.
I honestly don’t know what to do. How in the world does one inspire someone to love and appreciate themselves and the life around them? How do you get someone to start believing in themselves and thinking positively? Is the answer what everyone tells me to do? Just stop it and let it go? Do I just give up? I mean it’s common knowledge that you can’t help someone who doesn’t want to be helped. It never works.
So what do I do now?
1 comment:
Your motives were good. Perhaps its just too sensitive still. Have you been able to talk to her since then? One of the hardest thing to deal with is having a friend/loved one who deals with clinical depression. Nothing makes me feel more impotent. I feel like if I was a good friend/wife I could help them be happy. It just doesn't work that way. Try not to take it personally sometimes all you can do is be there.
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