is that wrong?

I donno what it is but more often then not I feel like I don't belong in the world I'm in.

I'm the loud outspoken one who asks too many questions.

I want to be a person who says what's on her heart and mind, that way people will always know upfront where they stand with me, no guessing, no nothing. It's just me take it or leave it.

I don't think thats so bad. I don't think thats a bad deal at all.

Yet why is it that people wont do that with me?

Secrets and keeping things quiet. Leaving bits a pieces out.

Not sharing all of yourself... not even to those who love you, no matter what?

I guess their is intrigue in the mysterious but in the end don't you just want someone to accept you for all of you?

& Hiding from yourself and who you are seems like such a hard way to live life.

& sure it's hard to talk about the hard emotional things, but why keep it bottled inside.

I like to imagine that every time you tell someone something that has hurt you, that each time it's said it hurts less and less.

I don't think it's bad to be the way you are, I just wish that I was being let in more.

My friends and family would be the first to know anything that was going on with me.